To be honest
I don’t even know if anyone views my tumblr
but I feel so invisible, even to my closest family and friends
I’m here, but I’m not, and I feel like it’s been so long that they don’t even notice the cues anymore
I’m not ok.
I have been very depressed, every day for four months now.
when I went to Europe I thought everything would be better
Instead I walked around like, basically an empty shell
I don’t know how much longer I can hang on
It’s honestly day by day
If I can just, just maybe distract my brain for long enough I’ll make it to tomorrow
but now I don’t even know why I’m trying to make it to the next
It’s sort of come to the point where I don’t.. do it.. because it would inconvenience someone
Like there is a festival on saturday, and all my friends would have wasted money on tickets if I inconveniently selfishly left.
Everyone is moving on, around me. replacing.
Because I’m stagnant, I’m basically just waiting till I have the energy to end it all..
Please accept this as my resignation
It’s time to go